They say every face in a crowd has a story to tell, this is my story..

The news shows and newspapers all called it 'Road Rage'. To me that sounded like a disease, an affliction that can make you kill. A sorry excuse to take the claw end of a hammer and slam it repeatedly into the skull of a human being. In April of 1999 my little brother passed away. Doesn't passed away sound so gentle, even normal? David's death was neither. It was murder. He was found lying in a strangers driveway in a pool of blood. He had been punched, stomped and beaten over his entire body. I still have so many questions. I wrote this book at first for therapy and then for answers. I have found a few. I mainly realized l lost a brother tragically and senselessly. Like every other face in the crowd I have a story..and I want to share my story with you! PUBLICATION DATE TO BE ANNOUNCED LATE SUMMER/EARLY FALL :)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

How is it possible to be so sad and so happy at the same time?

Chapters edited and approved.  Chapters titled (may need edits; have not heard yet.  Dedication written.  This has been the slowest roller coaster ride of my life (well actually I've only been on 2 real roller coasters and I hate them) but..this has been a very long process and I have 2 full files of rejections to prove how long this ride has been.  So now; with a big yes and so much fabulous feedback...why am I crying...all the time?  It is almost like I do not want to let go of all of these thoughts and feelings I have put into words.  Part of me wants to keep them with me in my soul forever and the other part wants to shout them from the mountain tops..maybe my cousin is right..I am having a bipolar moment..maybe I'm afraid of failure..maybe I'm nervous about book #2 and expectations...or am I just relieved!  It  was such a personal story to tell and will effect so many people; hopefully more in a positive way and less negatively.  So here I go up that last hill...


  1. First of all, I am sooo sorry for your loss. I've lost both a brother and a sister (though neither of them violently), but I can only imagine what you must have gone through.

    Best wishes to you on your first book -- and your second one too!

    Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving an encouraging comment. I can't wait to see your journey unfold!

  2. Thank you Cindy..please stop back often and I will do the same!

  3. I can't wait to read your book. I've just lost my brother to suicide and I'm feeling heart broken. It's a wonderful thing to share such a painful part of yourself. Thanks for having so much courage!

  4. Thank you Alaine..I am hoping for a late summer, early fall release. My brother's name was also Dave and my husband's son died of suicide his name was John. I will continue prayers for you and your family and I am wishing courage for you..