They say every face in a crowd has a story to tell, this is my story..

The news shows and newspapers all called it 'Road Rage'. To me that sounded like a disease, an affliction that can make you kill. A sorry excuse to take the claw end of a hammer and slam it repeatedly into the skull of a human being. In April of 1999 my little brother passed away. Doesn't passed away sound so gentle, even normal? David's death was neither. It was murder. He was found lying in a strangers driveway in a pool of blood. He had been punched, stomped and beaten over his entire body. I still have so many questions. I wrote this book at first for therapy and then for answers. I have found a few. I mainly realized l lost a brother tragically and senselessly. Like every other face in the crowd I have a story..and I want to share my story with you! PUBLICATION DATE TO BE ANNOUNCED LATE SUMMER/EARLY FALL :)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

It is almost April..

For the past 11 years I have hated April.  Towards the end of March my body begins to feel heavy; I feel depressed and angry.  I am very sensitive to everything, noise, light, happy people..everything upsets me.  Then I realize it is almost April and with the dreaded month of April comes the reminder, the anniversary (how I hate that word) of David's death.  It isn't just me; my husband's body, who's son also died in April, has the same physical symptoms.  For all those people that said time will heal the wounds; I hate lie.  Time changes many things but not the pain and most certainly not the questions I still have unanswered and the mental anguish of what if's. I try to feel differently.  I try to remember the happier memories, try to celebrate the life that lived rather than dwell on the life that ended too soon.  I have so many blessings in my life to be thank full for.  I will be thank full again in May.  For now I will be sad and dread the month of April.


  1. My heart is with you and Uncle John. I wish you a beautiful month, filled with good "book" things!!!

  2. Wow! It is the month of March for me. And maybe that is why my birthday takes on new shape and meaning, it falls on March 23rd?
    Time doesn't heal wounds, it just layers them with tissue so you can't see the pain as clearly.
    Many blessings friend

  3. Thank you Joni..I am keeping very busy this month..we will have a memorial service on April 22 at a park called the victims memorial garden..there is a tree planted there for every murder victim in the is always a good feeling to see how many of David's friends still come to remember him..
    Many blessings being wished your way..

  4. Thank you Kate and you know we wish the same for you!